Called HOme

Warrior 4 kept waking up last night! He went down at 8 pm. For sure I thought he was going to sleep for 4 hours straight because he ate 1/3 c. of rice cereal and drank 6 oz of formula but then woke up at 10. Nursed him and then went back to sleep. He woke up again at 11, I gave him 4 oz of formula ..back to sleep. That's good. no! that's bad. Intermittent sleep! UGH!

Anyway, I called home and finally talked to Mama and Papa. Glet was there too. The reception was terrible Mama was yelling on the other end...couldn't really hear Papa either. He sounds so frail. It saddens me to hear him so weak and not himself. I don't know what to think. Mama tells me that Papa is getting better and is eating well but Glet says that he is weak and that I should save up and plan to go home in the summer. So, is his condition actually worse than what Mama perceives?

Glet shared with me that when they were eating, sometimes he'll just burst into tears and said that when she saw him do that it reminded her of Papang except Papa doesn't have Alzheimer's. I can still picture the last time I saw him cry like never before was when I dropped him and Mama off at the airport in August. He was sitting in his wheelchair (since he has a limp when walking I suggested that we get a wheelchair at the ticket counter so they'll have assistance..blah blah blah) and then called me to move closer to him. As I approached him ..he just lost it and started crying like we are not going to see each other for a long time. We've parted quite often in the past but I've never seen him let go (cry) like that. We hugged and he told me "AGAN-ANOS KA". I said NAANOSAK MET.

This is all for now. Have to stop I can't see what I'm typing. Breathe in! Breathe out!