Asukar Withdrawals

Today went great!  Dropped the kids to school, walked around the block once, went home to hang my laundry and then met up with my walking co-madres  (Plain Jane and Tita 96... ) and their chikitas for a good hour.  That felt good....   I'm stuck!  I'm having a mental block right now.  Fast forward to ...... oh yeah! out of the ground from burying my kitchen scraps comes a cluster of little papaya trees which I've ignored for quite sometime now.  Today, I decided that they needed to be split up.   They were about 2-3 ft tall already.   They were fighting for their personal space to grow.  So, i was digging and digging until I successfully dug 'em out.  ha!  proud of myself.    I had two Avocado trees growing well but my Honeybuns had to dig it out because  it was too close to the house.....afraid that the roots will ruin the foundation of this old house we are renting from.  I'll spare all the details.   

Anyway, going  back to my why I'm writing.  It's that time again.   I was craving a lot of sweets all of last week and I indulged and engulfed a whole thing of lemon bars, brownies, vanilla ice cream with mixed berries, banana splits, fudge popsicles and chocolate chip cookies.  I hate to admit it but I even had several squares of TripleChocolateChip Ghiraldeli Brownies for .... BREAKFAST!   Brownies for Breakfast!   That's like drinking soda first thing in the morning!  ( I can say that because i could care less about soda.)   Way too much.  I need to stop baking and buying these things.   aaaaaaaaaaagggggggggggghhhhhhhh!

Today, I thought of being good to my body.  I had a banana.  Green Salad sprinkled with spicy chips and drizzled catalina dressing over it.  That was good...but then comes 1 o'clock  I started craving for you know what.   I tried to suppress my craving by eating watermelon but that didn't do anything.   I couldn't resist so I had a  shortbread cookie with macadamia nuts dipped in white chocolate from cookie korner.  I didn't only eat 1 but 2.   Around 4 pm, I was getting hungry again so started making dinner (made tuna cakes) and ate around 4:50 pm.  Whew!  I was safe but then 6 o'clock came and I was getting  restless and jittery ....i  need my sugar!  Went in the pantry to look for cake mix and wanted my sugar!   I didn't make the cake but somebody else did.  My 9 year old Fijian Warrior  made  the cake for me.   (he loves his sweets  just like me)  I know.  I need to be a better example for my kids.  I just need to try harder.

That was today.  Tomorrow is another day.  I hope  I can make better choices  tomorrow. 

Namaste'